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The 5th of August I left with my two friends Mus and Jur to Budapest, mostly for the Sziget festival but secretly also for a little city-trip. I had an ambivalent experience with Budapest, at first I didn't like it all: the streets were too bombastic, the pavements too empty and the architecture somewhat uniform (Of course, I wasn't there long enough to really judge blablabla). One night, we did actually found a very nice arty-alternative looking bar, which was truly a cool spot (also 'cause I was meeting my other good friend Ifeta there). Later, after the festival, I found more of these "spots" such as the more backward neighborhoods, modern styled parks and the uberchill bathhouse. In the end, Budapest came to be a city unlike the other big ones which I tend to love immediately; no it seems more a city that one would have to grow into by finding and connecting these cool spots in between the somewhat oppressive housing. Unfortunately I did not have enough time for that but next time I know what to look for. Now, instead of the city memories, I'll have to do with the golden memory of me and my two friends rambling in the long and wide streets.

Do you have a dream? An ambition? And what is an ambition actually? Maybe it's something like a detailed vision of your personal future, which you will have to force upon the natural course of things. It's good to ponder your ambitions from time to time. Here some pondering about the general idea concept in order to strengthen and be more conscious of ambitionary drives. For one, is it good to follow your ambition? Because at some point you will have to be stonecold to the people you care for, the moment when your priorities reveal themselves. And that's where it gets nasty, it'll all depend on how much you are willing to sacrifice for your dream; friends, family and yourself. To me it seems that it's in general a male trait to be cruel, hard but also blind when it comes to the battle towards one's top. Some ambitions seem to be imbued with more 'will', some more abstract or idealized. Hitler's vision must have been strong and blind, how else could he have inspired tons of people? Sometimes a dream can be so strong that it absorbs those of other people, such as the ambitions of a nation (think of the older China). And most importantly, does a 'mistaken ambition' exist? In other words, can you have a dream that is not the right one? Could you be pursuing the wrong aspects of your dream? Could you be striving for a distinct profession while actually it's essentially only about the feeling you get from the profession. Could your dream to be famous famous boil down to the desire of having life-lasting influences on people? Small differences matter. Can an ambition be essentially mistaken or only wrong in the sense of the particular road taken? That is the question.