Mart-deBlog

I just realized this simple, yet profound thing. That is, I will always need an interesting, uncanny story with the girl I'll ever get serious with (hypothetically speaking). I wonder how that is with other people. Imagine, you meet and kindoff like each other and then stay together because things are fine and then... a miserable life. How could such a relationship ever get interesting? Only in an arthouse movie played by Kidman, maybe. Or, you meet your other half in a bar, and you start talking... isn't that miserable? No, really the only way it can go is by twists of fate, a plot and mysterious glimpses of a destiny together; that is the only way I could meet. If there is no unreal beginning, I don't see how things can ever go beyond being 'pleasant.' How to tell the story of the true beginning of your children, if you would ever get them with one of the flat characters? Also, I know people who stage the story, those who create the storyline themselves; but I don't think that works either because things will always feel blown up or elevated. Deep down, you will always know whether the story is rooted in the world, or sadly dramatized with the world as a mere stage. THUS, I and a girl need to be brought together by a story; there really is no other way. And I cannot really see how that might be otherwise for anyone else...

I'm doing nothing. At all. And that does stuff to you. Life becomes undefined, a healthy twilight zone. So here is how laziness fits in my personal philosophy.
I believe that what we know is made solely of distinctions. Maybe even perception and experience have essentially the structure of boundaries. These distinctions come before the identification, for example recognizing your computer-screen happens through the boundary of your computer screen, the distinction between screen and the rest. Put simply, differences underly experience. So, studying means in a way that you constantly carve stuff up, for example, body becomes organs, and organs become nitty gritty cell-groups etc. or abstract schemas, learning of such distinctions between realism&idealism, subject&object, id&ego, rational&irrational numbers, right&wrong etc. etc. Becoming intellectual is nothing more than acquiring a set of these abstract distinctions. This is where I distinguish between intellectuality and wisdom, intellectual people get stuck in their group of distinctions, fast and sharp they carve their world up. This is this and that is that, and not otherwise. It makes old, dogmatic and arrogant. So now I take the time to rewire, to blur the stuff I learned and to experience what is in-between this and that. Just to go to Berlin with a primordial soup between my ears.
So far my defense of laziness.